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[colorofthesky]

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“Hey, it’s Zack. Leave a message after the beep.”

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[colorofthesky]

[ What… ]

Lark came to talk to me after it happened, and I told him you did it because you were mad at me. But not what you were mad about.

[ Because he doesn’t trust Lark with something like that. ]

He brought Trevor with him?

[sefirot]

Yes. Trevor threatened murder if they didn't get answers. Also made a poor attempt at driving up anger when I said there were no answers to give.

Called me a monster without direction.

Lark was searching for root cause between you and I.

[ukan]

No, and you shouldn't have to be. I think...that you give us insight into a very troubled situation, but I can see how we've all been assuming you can handle it because you have a better understanding.

[colorofthesky]

[ There is a long pause, and Zack mutters something ugly under his breath. ]

All right. I’ll deal with this.

Thanks for letting me know.

[sefirot]

I figured you'd want to be aware since he brought you into it.

[colorofthesky]

I’m not as bothered that he brought me into it as I am by the fact that he brought Trevor down there with him.

And I know you can take care of yourself just fine, but if Trevor starts harassing you, I do want to know about it.

[colorofthesky]

You know, none of his temps have asked me about him? This entire time?

I can count on one hand how many of his temps I’ve talked to, and either it was because I initiated the conversation or we were talking about something else, and Sephiroth came up.

It’s not a secret that he knows me. Or that I know him.

And yeah, I can handle him just fine on an individual basis. I know him really well and can tell literally anybody about landmines to avoid with him. But like I said - that doesn’t make me a good choice to be his Warden.

[sefirot]

I'd be careful who you choose to share information with in the future. You may not be concerned with it, but he brought it up in order to use you.

[colorofthesky]

I gave it to him because I wanted to see what he’d do with it.

All he did is prove I can’t trust him.

[sefirot]

It was a misplaced trust it seems.

Trevor holds a lot of anger. It is possible he will try something, but he also considers himself something of a failure. So who is to say if he will follow through with anything.

[colorofthesky]

[ Zack ignores most of that. He did what he did for a reason, and even though he’s pissed, he’s not sorry he did it. ]

There’s just one other thing I want to know. Did Lark say anything to Trevor about the shit he called you?

[sefirot]

No. They exchanged subtle glances, I imagine whatever they were going for they were in on it together.

[colorofthesky]

[ Zack takes a breath...and releases it. He's furious...but he's making himself stay calm. ]

All right.

[ A pause. ]

Are things going okay with your current temp?

[sefirot]

I have no complaints. Why do you ask?

[colorofthesky]

[ There's a pause in which Zack debates how honest he actually wants to be. ]

I'm really frustrated right now. So I'm glad to hear at least something is going okay.

[sefirot]

As I am still without the full extent of my powers I'd hardly call any of this okay. But it is no worse than before.

[colorofthesky]

Sometimes ‘no worse than before’ is as good as it gets around here.

[sefirot]

Which in itself is a problem. Shouldn't more effort be put in to things being better?

[colorofthesky]

[ Zack sighs. ]

You’d think…but no one can agree on what that should look like.

[sefirot]

What do you think it should look like?

[atowncalledtreffy]

So back when Sephiroth murdered Trixie, I went to her, and Ye Zun, and Dorian and asked what they wanted done about it.

Trixie said nothing. Ye Zun blamed himself. Dorian said 'wait two weeks.'

I waited two weeks. I go back to Dorian and ask what happened. He says he tortured Sephiroth.

Sephiroth confirms it and says you won't do anything about it.



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This is me, trying to do things your way, Zack. Please tell me you're not all right with torture, for any reason. No matter who.

[colorofthesky]

[ Man, there sure is a whole lot to unpack here, but he's going to try to be on the level even though he's still kind of pissed about the Zero incident. ]

No, I'm not okay with torture. Just like I'm not okay with the killing and cycles of violence that happen on this ship all the damn time.

I'll admit, though, I'm kind of surprised you care about this considering the first thing you wanted to do when you heard the news about Trixie was to kill him right back.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Don't turn this back on me, Zack. I'm here on behalf of everyone. Sephiroth included. Even if he's a fuck-off murderer, no one deserves to be tortured.

Are you going to do something about this?

[colorofthesky]

No, Trevor. You're not here for everyone.

I talked to Trixie. Killing him wouldn't have helped her or given her closure. It wouldn't have helped Sephiroth either or taught him a damn thing. Because if killing him did literally anything to deter him from doing bad shit, he wouldn't have died three times already back home.

So who does that leave? It leaves you. It leaves you and whatever it is that's snapping at your heels, so you keep running instead of looking at the pile of shit in your own backyard.

Don't tell me you give a shit about Sephiroth when you called him a monster down in Zero and threatened to beat him if he didn't tell you what you wanted to know.

And don't tell me your line is torture when you set a man on fire in the chapel. As if death by fire isn't a horrible way to die, as if the death toll after being killed in that way wasn't just like feeling those flames for at least a few days after the fact.

So no. You don't get to claim you're here for everyone, Trevor. And it's about damn time you started thinking about taking a hard look in the mirror and doing some work on yourself.

[atowncalledtreffy]

Fuck you, Zack. God forbid you ever say "Hey, yeah, torturing Sephiroth is wrong, we should stop that."

I'm not coming to you with anything ever again. Fuck you up your self-satisfied ass.